I set up an online dating account and dove in. My girlfriends and I have been touching on the subject here and there for the past few years. Chat, after chat, I decided to do it. It feels weird, almost violating... I instantly got a mailbox full of GROSS messages and quickly had to change my settings to not allow "sexual encounters" to contact me. Sorry- 50 year old beer belly divorcee from Chilliwack, I am absolutely NOT interested. From talking to friends it can be successful, and most definitely fun, and to be honest the fact that 50 y/o Chilliwack native told me I look like a supermodel felt pretty damn good.
In the days of no Luca I had no trouble finding a man, especially working in the industry, men are a dime a dozen. Now, as a single mom, I literally have no opportunities to meet anyone. I am home alone with Luca every night but one and that one I am working. I have convinced myself that everyone on there must be a mass murderer so the chances that I will actually go on a date are slim to none, but you never know.
Once you have exposed your single life online you live life through different eyes. Yesterday at JJ and at school all the men I saw were now different. "Omg are they online daters? Do I recognize him from p.o.f? Is he looking at me because he recognizes me and knows I'm fishing?!?!?!?
For the first time in two years I feel like I am actually not looking or wanting a relationship, the fact that during this freeing time I have decided to online date is beyond me.